Change, change, change... that is the most dominant word in my vocabulary right now. I've been home for a week and all I know is that things need to change. Last week, I got moved upstairs at work to start learning more and getting involved in more things. I started off downstairs, went upstairs, then came back down and now I'm back up. It's definitely a good thing that I'm moving up and starting to learn more things, but I definitely miss being downstairs. I liked dealing with people, even though patients can be a bit much at times and I liked being around the staff downstairs. The staff upstairs is great, too it's just things are a lot more quiet up there, which I don't know if I'll be able to get used to. Luckily, I do get to go downstairs here and there so I'm not completely disconnected.
I decided to leave my gym that I've been at for the past 7 years. There are new owners and the place is dead, run down and I'm just bored with it. After much considering, I decided to join a gym in Montville with my cousin, which will work out well for both of us. They have a bunch of awesome classes to take and I think it'll be good to just be somewhere new. Yoga and kickboxing is something I need in my life.
I am just not happy with my body at the present moment. I'm a former fat girl, I'm always going to have body image issues, but I've gotta be in control of this otherwise I'll be walking down a road I don't want to be on again. For the way that I eat and how I work out, I feel like there should be some more progress. I felt like I was making some awhile back, but I feel completely stagnate right now and I don't like it. Couldn't something come a little bit easy? I don't mind having to work out, I actually enjoy it, and I like eating healthy, but I've about had it with grilled chicken and salad. There are mornings I wake up and I just want to eat a bagel with cream cheese rather than scrambled eggs or a yogurt. I'd LOVE to have a really good sandwich at lunch and I would be very content with having some pasta and perhaps some kind of meat as my dinner on a nightly basis. However, I like to consider myself a realist and I know that's not something that can happen in my world.
Food was good today... whole grain English muffin with peanut butter for breakfast, yogurt for snack, chicken and salad with a little cheese and cherry tomatoes, some corn soup (made by me!) and chicken for dinner. I ended the night with a yogurt even though I wanted a big bowl of the coffee ice cream I made yesterday. Yesterday was my cooking day so I made corn soup, eggplant caponata, asparagus salad, barley salad, and chicken so I'm pretty set for the week. Unfortunately, I won't get to the gym until probably Thursday but I'm looking forward to starting at this new gym. Went in tonight and I think I'll be just fine there.
In less than 2 days my cousins will be home from medical school until Labor Day and I'm so excited I can't even express it! There is nothing like when the 4 of us are back together so I'm looking forward to some awesome dinners, good parties and just fun times! I've got my head on straight as to what I need to do to get myself in order, but a little added inspiration wouldn't hurt either. Time for bed... another long day tomorrow! Until next time!
Marisa
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hi goody.. just thought id give you some advice that has helped me lose about 15 pounds in 3 months... kickboxing and yoga will do nothing but stretch you out and calm you down unless you are really working those kicks...but it seriously wont help you lose any weight.. you need to just walk once or twice a day (and a mean a long , sweaty walk) or go on the tredmill or ecliptical for 20 mins. you will notice a difference... and as for your eating habits.. eggs on whole wheat toast for breakfast or a sandwich on whole wheat or even a salad EVERY day will eventually catch up to you.. just a piece of toast in the morning and a yogurt for lunch is A LOT BETTER.. && its okay to feel hungry throughout the day.. ALSO you do not need a "snack" before your actual lunch.. i learned within a couple months how all of THIS can help you lose weight.. im just here to help!
ReplyDeletea couple more tips that i have thought of: 1. just because you have whole wheat with ANYTHING you eat doesn't make it healthy or help you lose weight 2. substitute butter and peanut butter for jelly which has NO fat or calories 3. its okay to feel a little hungry throughout the day, it WONT kill you. i am hungry throughout the day but i also am active 4. move a little bit, instead of slowly walking up the stairs RUN up them or SKIP steps, also substitute elevators for stairs. (i have arthritis & i NEVER take an elevator). we have a BEAUTIFUL pool at daddys so when you are there ITS OKAYY to jump in and swim some laps or get on a raft and kick back and forth.. little excersises throughout the dayy WILL HELPP! 5. when you do a lot of excersise and eat better during the day u will feel better with having SOME dessert just to give you sugar... 6. you have 2 dogs living with you.. TAKE them out on a long walk once a day.. i know remmy is old and cant move that quickly BUT stella will LOVE IT!... ALL of these things i have learned by myself AND through my mother (who stays in VERY good shape & shes 51!).. i know that people might have tried to help you but i thought it was MY turn to say what i have to say.. you can chose to ignore it or get something out of it.. HOPE THIS HELPS!
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